Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Phoenix...

I wrote this awhile ago and recently shared it with my friend.  She was quick to point out something I had missed.  This applies to so many people at any given time.

We are all going through something in our daily lives.  We all have struggles, times we feel low and we all lose faith in ourselves once in awhile.  Every single one of us!

But no matter how alone we are feeling, we are not alone.  We all have a beautiful light within and we all deserve to feel good enough to let that light shine bright.

So when you are feeling down, alone, deserted and just lost... remember that there are people out there that support you and believe in you....

Phoenix
Tracey Howard

What do you want to be
When you grow up?
The universal question
Adults seem compelled to ask
Tell me child
What do you want to be?
With stars of promise
Shining from your young eyes
You answered with dreams
A doctor!
An astronaut!
A super star!
A super hero!
Not even the skies
Could limit you
There were no goals
Too high to reach
Adults would praise you
How precious, how beautiful
How smart, how daring
And you were told
You could do anything
Could be anything
And you agreed
Soaking in that praise
Gloriously accepting it
As your due
You knew in your heart
You were everything
Beautiful
Shining with a flame so bright
You dreamed…big!
Somewhere in that dreaming
You began to lose
Your confidence
Your drive
Your thirst to soar
Above the clouds
You no longer believed
In yourself
And your flame dwindled
Until it guttered out
Leaving you cold in the night
When asked again
What do you want to be
Now that you have grown?
Your insecurities answer
In tiny whispers
Eyes downcast
Apologizing for daring
To even exist
Enough!
It’s time to fulfill
Those spectacular dreams
Be your own super hero
Now is the time
To don that cape
And save yourself!
You are even more beautiful
Special
Amazing
Now than you were then
Raise your head
And your eyes
See the promise
And the wonder
That still lives in you
You are already
A super star
Re-ignite the flame
I see still burning within
Shine bright
Blind those who
Would hold you down
Rise up through the ashes
Of self-doubt
Like the phoenix
Through the flames of rebirth
To burn the shadows away
Purging the negatives
Rising above the nay-sayers
Dance in your flames
Light the skies
Believe in yourself
Like I have always
Believed in you


©2015 Tracey Howard

Slainte!

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Week One

   Well the first week is nearly finished.  I would love to be able to stand here (or sit as the case may be) and crow about massive changes, big loss, etc.  But I promised I would be honest.
    I have noticed that I am beginning to sleep a bit better.  My energy during the day is picking up a bit.  So, I’m content.  After only 5 days I really didn’t expect any changes, no matter how subtle, so these little things are good in my opinion.  One BIG thing I have noticed is that these products are not bothering my stomach in any way.  No heartburn, no nausea, no rumbling belly.  That is a big deal for me as I have a very sensitive belly.
    I promised to talk a bit about the products that my amazing support lady, Cynara Kleuver, recommended for me.  There are four total.
    First is Plexus Slim.  The pink drink.  It’s actually not bad tasting at all.  (I have tried any number of different ‘health’ drinks over the years most of which left me nauseated and/or nonplussed.)  
    Oh!  For the sake of transparency… I had a friend come to visit me a couple of years back who was just starting the Plexus plan.  At that time there were only a couple of products for offer and they were still pretty new.  I tried her Slim drink while she was visiting and absolutely hated the taste!  I was nervous about trying the mix again.  But!  It tastes a lot like a mild fruit drink to me!  
    The second product is Plexus BioCleanse.  This is the product that is bringing the bonus energy levels. It helps to oxygenate the body which is just good all the way around.  It works to detox your body and remove all the nasties you accumulate in life.
    The third product is Plexus ProBio.  By this time pretty much every person knows what probiotics are for. That is basically what this product is. It does some wonderful things to straighten your gut out as well as add in lovely things to help strengthen the immune system and fight off the nasties that like to invade.
    The fourth product is Plexus Nerve.  As I mentioned before, I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease.  The damage to the nervous system, combined with the sugar issues from earlier, have created a perfect environment for numbness in my hands and feet as well as aches and pains all around.  This product is here to help alleviate and repair some of those damages.
    This first month is going to be pretty mild in terms of changes as I am taking these products at half dosages.  I wanted to give my system time to acclimate without causing a lot of possible issues (like the upset stomach, etc.).  I’m planning on hitting them full dosage starting in another couple of weeks. Until then I’m going to continue to monitor and record any and all changes I notice.  
    That’s an unofficial thing I personally recommend. Invest in an inexpensive notebook or journal and keep track of all the things happening (or not happening) as well as the numbers on your journey.  I am keeping tabs on my weight and measurements.  Although I’ve not put them up here, at this time, further along the path to getting healthy I might just do so.  But it’s nice to have a starting reference point.  I can go back and when I’m feeling discouraged and look at all the things that are happening to help strengthen my resolve and commitment.
   So, that’s about it for the technical stuff at this point. I will continue to add information as I learn new things and any changes I note in myself.  
 Slainte!

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

No More Excuses

This is my story.  I'm sharing this with the idea that maybe, just maybe there are others out there that might be going through this same thing or are considering taking the steps to start a life change.  I won't promise anything except to always be 100% honest and I invite any and all readers to feel free to share their thoughts and stories if they've a mind to!

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I grew up the fat girl.  You know what I’m talking about, whom I am talking about, right?  From the age of 10 my stepmom told me how fat I was.  She would have me stand in front of visiting adults, turn sideways and show them how my back was curved from being overweight.  (her words, not mine) By the age of 12 she decided I needed to diet.
From 12 to 16 I remember being put on any and all diets that came down the line.  The grapefruit diet (yes that is a real thing and not just a bad meme from the 80’s), the all protein diet, the salt free diet, the minimal calorie count diet.  There was one where you had to weight every bit of food that went into your mouth, it was more about the size and weight than the actual calorie counts.  There was always some kind of restriction that she had me following. 
The funny part of it was after all that counting, measuring, weighing, etc. we still had ice cream just before bed and homemade bread and cinnamon rolls and cake and cookies and…. Well, you get the idea. 
By the time my senior year of high school rolled around and my first part time job with it, I wasn’t home much for her to monitor what I did or didn’t eat.  My diet went from bad to worse.  I skipped meals, ate a lot of junk and drank a lot of soda.  Working at a local buffet style restaurant where the soda and snacks were free didn’t help. 
Flash forward a few years and my diet was still horrid but working 2 jobs and living from check to check kept me moving physically so the weight was stable.  I carried a few extra pounds around the stomach and thighs but I could keep up physically with life so didn’t think much about it. 
A few more years pass and I move away with my, now, husband.  He was smart and finished college and could provide for us both so I became a full-time couch potato.  The good part was that, with his influence, my daily diet straightened out a bit.  The bad part… other than housework, my activity level dropped to roughly that of a terminally lazy sloth.
Three years into our time together we were surprisingly blessed with our daughter.  I actually lost quite a bit of weight during my pregnancy.  (all hail morning sickness… or in my case, all damn day sickness for almost 6 months).  Once our daughter arrived I was busy taking care of her so my activity levels went up and stayed up for quite a while. 
A month or so after my daughter turned a year old, I was diagnosed with M.S.  Thus, began my time of living life pissed off, depressed and the slide down the slippery slope of weight gain and poor health choices began.  I figured I was already broken and useless so why bother with trying to take care of myself.  As long as I kept up with my child and she was happy then to hell with the rest of it.
I wish I could say that eventually I straightened out and turned around.  I continued the horrible cycle of fad diets and bad choices.  Atkins, Weight Watchers, Curves, Slim Fast…. Etc.  I continued to try them all and failed every time. 
This story could continue on, but you get the idea of where I am coming from so we will jump to my present day.  The last couple of years have been rough.  My husband had a heart attack, he is also a 2-time cancer survivor (he’s not even 50 yet).  We were both found to have majorly high blood sugar and A1C counts so both of us were put on insulin. 
While we have been able to kick the sugar monster back into hiding, my weight is at an all-time high.  The disregard for my personal well-being is a habit that has become ingrained and with the help of some good friends and a major dose of common sense I have finally reached a point in life where I want to change things.  I want to make progressive, positive changes towards being a healthier me. 
Enter a very special friend and her amazing ability to not only keep me thinking positively but also keep my wandering head in a semi-straight path.  The biggest thing she has done for me, besides being an amazing source of support and warm fuzzies, is introduce me to a new ‘tool’ in weight loss.
This tool is called “Plexus”.  Having run the gambit of diet aides, I was skeptical until I started reading up on the products.  They are all natural, and unlike the snake oil sales pitches that most wonder products try to catch you with, these state quite clearly that this is not some wonder drug that will magically melt the weight off while you sleep.  What they do promise is that if you are willing to stick to your program, work consistently and diligently then they will be able to help you achieve your permanent goals.
I like that they don’t make false promises.  I also like that they are an all-natural line of products.  I LOVE the support of the Plexus community as well as my friend and advocate.  She is available to me whenever I need her.  If I have questions and/or concerns she is willing and able and happy to talk with me and help me work through them.  If she doesn’t know an answer she will tell me up front and go find the wanted information and bring it back to me.
   So, I’m starting a new chapter in my life.  I am committing myself to making myself healthier.  I am going to keep track of the whole process and journey here.  I will promise here and now to always be honest and open to discussion.  
   Until next time, 

   Slainte!